Studying at Home

Sad, I have a stepfather who never treats me good. Recently, he keep scolding me about my cannot make it results of one of my subject. It is not that I do not wan to pass that subject, but the thing is I not interested and also that subject is nt my strength and I am really weak in it. But problem is I study 3 subjects only, so cant drop that subject, if nt I am not allow to graduate.
Everyday, I am forced by my stepfather to stay at home to study immediately after I came back frm school. I am not allowed to go out at night, even hav dinner with my friends at the aircon kopitiam with television and big screen(although the big screen recently spoilt cant watch my favourite Wigan play) also cannot. Now saturday, he also wan me stay at home study and study. I cant even watch my favourite cartoon Pokemon, dunnoe Togepi showing ornt, cos long time nvr switch on Kids Central liao, cos not allowed to watch, only mus study. Think soon I cant stop going to Church liao. cos I might oso be forced to stay at home to study on Sunday. God, Jesus, u mus forgive me. My stepfather oso hired a maid, always cook cannot make it food for me to eat. sometimes, she never cook wan take away food frm my favourite kopitiam as mentioned above for me oso cannot. tink my stepfather no money, so dun wan my maid to take away food back from me. If this continues, think need to use my own pocket money to buy cup noodles put at home liao. everyday, giv me so little pocket money, now still hav to use tat small amt to buy cup noodles. I think I getting depression, maybe soon I going to push my father into the fire like wat happens in the movie"The Maid" by Raintree Pictures. I haven watch that movie yet, and wat happen in the movie also is heard frm by my fren. Everyday, after school, mus come back home, where got time watch movie.